Because, why not?

They were right

Do the things that scare you

The things that make your stomach nervous

Because those are the best things for you

Those are the things that will make you happy

They will bring you freedom


it’s raining


it sounds

so lovely


Thankful for all I have now,

silence the Storm of To Do and rest from the Mountain of To Achieve

All that is to come

will come in due time.

There is peace and bliss in the now and we are blind to it by looking constantly forward and sometimes behind…

Breathe and relax into the Now.

It’s amazing how you can feel

How you can miss someone who is alive and mere metres away

But you miss them eternally as if they were already no longer here

And some that are already gone you know in your heart you will never forget them

And you miss them in a heartbreaking way for you know you can never bring them back

There is no life after death

There is no resurrection

You are gone

Yet I won’t think of you like that


I wish I could protect you from harm

I wish I could keep you safe and alive

I feel like I want to drop down but I don’t have the luxury of dropping down

No matter how weak my legs feel, I just have to stand

Keep going…

No other choice.

I want to crawl on my knees
until I can walk
Another day without him…
“But you are not dying.”
“You’re right, I am not,
I am slowly making it,
one day at a time”.

I don’t want to die
I want to live!
I want to live with this pain
I want to nurse it
It is a gift
I want to live with this pain
I want to nurse it
I accept


How it feels when walls come down
That is peace and
a flutter of fear

A newfound excitement bubbling beneath the surface anxiously awaiting escape and a celebration

The not knowing is freedom

The ‘What next?’ gives way to
No matter what…

I feel like a brook gurgling and bubbling over with joy at my


(Thank you KDAJ, you taught me love and letting go)

Walking Away from Someone You Really Care About

Wow. I like how gentle this is.

Ester Nicholson

Are you listening to the signs?

Are you listening to your gut?

Or are you ignoring your intuition, hoping it’s wrong, and that your desire and longing for love conquers all?

Let me share with you my story about having the courage to walk away from someone I really cared about.

I met this guy on a flight back to Nashville. This was at a time in my life when I had totally surrendered to God, and was in the zone. I was feeling good, open, available and receptive to my Higher Power’s will in every area of my life – but looking for nothing specifically.

So I’m sitting in my seat on the airplane, minding my own business, when this really good looking guy plopped down in the seat right next to me. The next thing I knew, we were holding hands and looking deeply into each other’s eyes…

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Skin feeling
Eyes see
Heart beating
Ears hear
Smile shining
Eyes open.

Hug yourself.

Love is beautiful
When it finds you
Let it in.

*last post

Fading strength

Can you hold me
While I steady myself?
For I’m tired to my eyeballs
My brain is sighing from weariness
And I crave quiet stillness.
Can you hold me please?
Dear God… will you!


A man can love you with his eyes

And lie to you with his lips

And he can do the opposite.

Or not love you at all.

Scarred and pained

If I’m living to die… And I know I will die, just a matter of when… Why must I want to own anything?
Why would I want to get married? Who gives me the right to cut into another’s time until they too die? What right do I have to miss  anyone? We’re all borrowing time from each other. A currency we can’t repay. Ever. Why should I aspire to own anything if all I’m going to do is die? Why have children? Why not use the time between this moment and that final moment to gaze at the lightning dancing for us? Watch smiles, listen to laughter? Why do we clutch at everything so? Why do we want to own? Why can’t we share? Why won’t we see how futile it is to hold onto things? Futile to try to hold onto others? Futile…
It hurts me so much.